It is time to retreat into solitude. Another equinox has arrived—just as it did seventy-seven years ago, and seven days later, I was born into a life already shaped by expectation, conditioned before I had the chance to choose.

Many of the people I encountered throughout my life were content with surface-level thinking—dismissive of truth or unaware of their own hidden pain—seeking escape in hollow amusement and easy laughter, leaving little of emotional or intellectual substance for future generations. I began to leave that world behind seven years ago. As expected, my way of thinking became the subject of circulating gossip—used as a tool of shaming against anyone who does not conform to the circle.

As long as I retain the capacity to think and feel, I am compelled to write—not to gain approval, but to actively disrupt the dependence on it. Many individuals organize their behavior around external validation, often granted by those who maintain control while concealing their own self-deception. I will not adopt silence as a strategy for social acceptance. Fear functions as a powerful inhibitory force; I deliberately choose not to reinforce it.

I write to assert—and to remind—that living truthfully requires a sustained tolerance for discomfort, rejection, and uncertainty. It requires the willingness to speak even when conformity would be the easier, more adaptive option. What I have come to understand cannot be meaningfully conveyed to those whose behavior is primarily driven by the need to impress others, and who remain within a continuous cycle of unawareness. However, it may serve as encouragement for those experiencing doubt, prompting the initiation of their own process of self-examination and development.

The words and concepts acquired through education and lived experience are not lost; they remain encoded within long-term memory. Though they may become temporarily inaccessible, they persist. When cognitive recall converges with affective activation, they re-emerge—restructured, more precise, and often less filtered by prior defenses. It is within this process that psychological honesty is established.

If humanity does not want to erase its own future, child abuse must end now.